Should I Tell My Mom About My “depression”?

by Jonopoly

Question by Nicole.: Should I tell my mom about my “depression”?
I’m 17 and graduating from high school in June of this year. I am consulting Yahoo! Answers because I felt it wouldn’t hurt to see what the people of the internet thought about my problem.

Background info: My mom and I get along as well as the next I’m guessing- however: she doesn’t know about how I’ve been struggling the past few years. I am always afraid to tell her about my feelings because I don’t want to come off as self-centered or selfish. I’m afraid to ask about a therapist or help because she’s very uptight about money. I know she loves me and would want me to feel better but I’m afraid she’ll become stressed out herself or continue to look over my problems as stress from being a Senior and graduating or from school work.

My problem: I am stressed about school. I’m stressed about starting my life, yes. I’m stressed about being a loner at school and keeping my boyfriend happy. I’m stressed about not being good enough or even pretty enough. This is slightly besides the fact. These stresses have been making my apathy, anxiety, and depression more difficult to deal with. I don’t know if I am medically “depressed” or whatever else. For the past 3 years I’ve felt really depressed on and off. I’ve never harmed myself. I think about suicide as a topic but never as an option. I’m scared of death and I don’t really care to die. recently I’ve had troubles sleeping. I can’t wake up in the morning and I’m foggy and bored all day at school and then suddenly when it comes time I should sleep, I’m wide awake. For a long time I’ve had a hard time being really enthusiastic about things in my life. Sometimes I feel like I’m acting a lot. I guess I’m a good actor because no one has noticed anything. I’m not looking for attention, I’m looking for motivation and happiness. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not sad all the time or anything; it’s usually caused by thinking certain ways. This past year I’ve been acting pretty impulsively. I’ll just do something because I want to and not really care how it would affect my life or the people around me. I don’t do drugs or consume alcohol. On at least one occasion during every day I feel detached from “reality” I guess. My ming wonders to places like “what’s the point” and I think about what reality is and where everything comes from and the point of existence and things. I am very sensitive about religion. As a kid I was raised loosely Christian. My faith in a god changes sometimes as frequent as multiple times in a day. This affects me a lot. I get really anxious when thinking about God and things. I’m really confused and this sometimes affects my mood and my decision making. This related to my feeling depressed and apathetic. My mom gets really mad at me a lot because I put off important things like applying to jobs or schools and getting my license. She hates that I spend my weekend with my boyfriend, with a friend, or doing nothing instead of things that I need to get done. I actually took off school today to work on somethings. I just don’t know about to tell her that I choose to do those things over work because during the week I get really depressed. I have a lot of downtime doing nothing at school and I do a lot of thinking. I’m not happy there and I hate waking up every school day morning. The weekends are pretty much the only days I can feel something better. Getting out gets my mind off of everything that makes me want to go see a therapist. The distracted feelings don’t usually last long. It makes me feel so bad because I’ll be having a perfectly desirable day and my mind will start wondering and I won’t want to do anything. My boyfriend will think I’m unhappy with our relationship or that I’m mad at him when that is not the case at all.

Sorry that was unbearably long. I wanted to get it all out I guess. Sorry if I come across as whiney or complain-y. Back to my original question. Do you think I should let my mom know about all of this and ask her to get me help? I want help. I don’t want to stress my mom out or make her unhappy or make her see me or treat me a different way. I don’t know anything else I could do besides keep living the way I am. In the big picture I guess that wouldn’t be so bad. I’m always reminding myself of the larger problems of the world. I don’t think I’m going through something normal. I honestly (and I’ve considered it) don’t believe the average teenage girl feels the way I do. I do believe there are people out there feeling the same way and I know there are people who feel a lot worse. I do want to feel happier and more motivated about life and things.

Thanks to those of you who read all of that. If it were me, I wouldn’t.

Best answer:

Answer by maria
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Answer by London
I think it would be good to tell someone :)

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