My Friends Dislike Me Because of the Side Effects of My Depression?

Question by Brielle King: My friends dislike me because of the side effects of my depression?
During freshman and sophomore year, I was suffering from severe chronic depression. It was bad; I thought of suicide, and cut myself three times a week. During that time, I was not the best person to be around. I was sarcastic and I lashed out in anger, because I was so irritable and jealous of their happiness.
This year, I’ve been making the effort to get better. I’m taking medication and talking about my issues with a counselor and trying to improve my attitude; others have noticed the improvement. However, although I’ve apologized, people are still angry with me over the things I said. One girl who used to be my friend is having a party over vacation; she told me I’m not invited because I’m mean, although she has not noticed it this year.
As you can imagine, this isn’t really helping the “recovering from depression” attempts. I feel worthless and horrible,because I’ve burnt so many bridges. I feel isolated; I’ve skipped school twice because I feel so alone. I know I hurt people; there’s no way to change that. I wish they had told me so I could have stopped; I didn’t realize at the time, and now I’m not sure what to do.

Does anyone have any advice?

Best answer:

Answer by Naguru
Please take some drastic steps immediately, so that they start liking you. Take proper and regular treatment without fail.

Answer by Kristen
The people that don’t forgive you and still don’t want to be around you… you should just forget them. They obviously don’t know what it’s like to go through what you did. They don’t know what it’s like to think about ending your life and to hurt yourself because you can’t think of anything else to do. They don’t know how to deal with it, they don’t know how to make you feel better. They feel helpless because they couldn’t help you and they were probably scared. I know that I had a “best friend” who said that she couldn’t be my friend anymore unless I stopped and got better because she couldn’t have negative influences in her life.
She wasn’t worth my time and anyone who won’t help you and abandons you when you need them most are not worth it. Forget them and find friends who will be there during your darkest hour. I found friends like that and the reason why they are there during those times is because they have been there too. They can relate and they actually UNDERSTAND.
You are not worthless and you most definitely are not horrible. What you have been through is horrible but it doesn’t make you that. It makes you stronger, smarter and wiser. You have a better understanding of life and its meaning and you can get through anything. You are better and stronger than those people and you need to rise above them. Leave them in the dust where they want to stay because they aren’t worth your precious time.
You’re special, beautiful, and PERFECT! <3 Don't let anyone try and make you feel differently. Stay strong and keep fighting!!!

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